Post by Ai Tsukuyomi on Jun 9, 2017 3:08:55 GMT
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dolls were meant to be ethereal in appearance, refined and dignified. they were meant to be a work of art, the kind you admire from afar and did not speak. they were objects of silence and allure -- decoration if you will. they did not mouth back or create a fuss. they were perfectly controlled in each and every way. you can dress them up whichever way you want, they are the epitome of beauty and poise. to some, dolls were the perfect means of control.
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bated breath and rushed steps, the smell of blood and the birth of laughter echoed. two months too early. the touch of rain, the night sky. luminescent eyes bond over the smell of lavender -- and enchantment. spilled ink and the color of eggshell, papers tucked away. each day it's growing darker, mother and her daughter, obsession. anxiety. gentle touches tied into soft whispers and promises of stability -- lies. lies painted upon the skin of nightmares and rigid schedules born from cracks of her mind. a mother's fear dancing upon the concept of corruption. a father's absence and love. one brother's envy and another's protective instinct conflict.
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mother knows best. lips with twisted smiles, sweet echoes of misconstrued information. illusions on top of bitter aspirations. stand straighter. smaller. don't draw attention. silence. quiet. quickened heartbeats and lessons of etiquette and knowledge. brilliance is gained not earned. the moon is white, painted in ivory. she speaks in tongues watered down by the lack of better understanding. ears filled. eyes closed. submersion in water. the feeling of pure static. skin stretched. ribs. lips. hair. teeth. white. innocence. purity. assumptions and disgust. terror. screaming not above whispering, all distorted. confusing. where is the light? an absence of color. strict meals. rice. ice. stand straighter, straighter. be smaller. quiet. misplaced kisses upon locks of silver. twinkling tears. she guesses it's okay. books and brooms. robes and smoke. lessons learned, mistakes repeated. don't bite the hand that feeds you. keep moving. silence. episodes of encouraging whispers. attention focused on the baby. a baby too young. naive. quiet. silence is deafening.
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bird cages. mood swings. a child asks,"where's daddy?" met with silence and whispers behind closed doors. father is flooded in work. a witch with ends to meet. mother knows best. protection. love. care. gentle touches, the brushing of hair. continuous whispers and lies spiraling around and around -- cacophony.
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biased words. pain stemming from obsidian and violet hues dancing around navy pools of dandelions -- marring porcelain. darkness twisting, turning. spirals into the void. swirling and building up into absolutely nothing. nihilism. a concept. stark differences between black and white. grey is an area familiar. grey. grey. soft and pure. innocence. breaking down and down. tasting fear with an aftertaste of bitter crimson. time dwindling. stand straighter. no noise. quiet down. don't smile. tears. warm. thick. cheeks pale, body cold. trembling fingers and muffled static. shaking, shaking. lack of air and static brings numbness which brings blurred faces and echoes. echo, echo. twisting around for quiet. comfort brought forth by the eldest, middle feels guilt. father's back? father is surprised. shouting. scary faces and unfamiliar hands pulling her up from the deep oasis of cold. coughing. obsidian, violet. dandelions in navy. dancing, painting. a hue of marred porcelain. ivory stains the moon with the smell of sanguine.
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choked sobs. confusion. gentle fingers, trembling. static upon static. new areas, new atmosphere. places with blurred faces. lack of sound. heavy chests and warm embraces. aroma lurking -- iron and rosewood. nights alone. fear clings to the absence of structure and routine. stand straighter? no more. no more. distant words and spoken thoughts. it's warm. months warped to years. it's easier. easier. quiet lingers. the taste of burnt cinnamon. perfect, an illusion. eldest kept her all this time -- progress made. skin wrapped upon meat wrapped upon bones. heavier, taller, weak but stronger. magic. familiars. quivering lips, tears. panic. hysteria. calm voices. nonexistent whispers. no longer following routine. learning. porcelain restored. silence, hands moving in a flurry.
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it's time for the bird to leave the nest. years upon years. memories blurred. faces blurred. distance memories. muddled water, static. aimless movement. the smell of stardust and pine. loving thoughts. eldest on the mind. eldest, middle redeemed. father's warmth. cheek kisses. bird cages. open opportunities. white and the taste of honeydew.
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unsure steps. the comfort of home lost within the wind, replaced with the bitter taste of licorice. confusion pieced together with trembling skin, goosebumps upon eyes unseeing yet seeing all the same. a few days turn to weeks, alone. scared. learning, knowing. experience forced. stand straighter, look smaller. dance. watch, observe. lost. taste of salt. itchy nose lingering on new sights. careful steps. brighter future. lights screaming beauty. enchanted.
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covens. witches. broomsticks. the taste of stardust and blurred past, present and future. lingering on a feeling, one moment of pure bliss. spilled apples. larger hands, fumbling motions of apologies. silence. smiles met with fear and trembling fingers. a smile brings comfort. courage. shared questions. ink. paper. gestures and timid gazes. cain. a name. patience and inspiration. concerns spilled. laughter. static. static. another smile. the taste of luck and the sound of opportunity. understanding without judgement. she remembers seeing relief. hope upon the horizon.
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synchronicity
and as the moon trembles, so does she
doll[break]
däl[break]
noun[break]
1.[break]
a small model of a human figure, often one of a baby or girl, used as a child's toy.[break]
verb (informal)[break]
1. [break]
dress someone or oneself smartly and attractively.
däl[break]
noun[break]
1.[break]
a small model of a human figure, often one of a baby or girl, used as a child's toy.[break]
verb (informal)[break]
1. [break]
dress someone or oneself smartly and attractively.
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dolls were meant to be ethereal in appearance, refined and dignified. they were meant to be a work of art, the kind you admire from afar and did not speak. they were objects of silence and allure -- decoration if you will. they did not mouth back or create a fuss. they were perfectly controlled in each and every way. you can dress them up whichever way you want, they are the epitome of beauty and poise. to some, dolls were the perfect means of control.
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"hurry, hurry! she's here, she's here!"
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bated breath and rushed steps, the smell of blood and the birth of laughter echoed. two months too early. the touch of rain, the night sky. luminescent eyes bond over the smell of lavender -- and enchantment. spilled ink and the color of eggshell, papers tucked away. each day it's growing darker, mother and her daughter, obsession. anxiety. gentle touches tied into soft whispers and promises of stability -- lies. lies painted upon the skin of nightmares and rigid schedules born from cracks of her mind. a mother's fear dancing upon the concept of corruption. a father's absence and love. one brother's envy and another's protective instinct conflict.
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"i promise you'll be perfect, my doll."
[break]
mother knows best. lips with twisted smiles, sweet echoes of misconstrued information. illusions on top of bitter aspirations. stand straighter. smaller. don't draw attention. silence. quiet. quickened heartbeats and lessons of etiquette and knowledge. brilliance is gained not earned. the moon is white, painted in ivory. she speaks in tongues watered down by the lack of better understanding. ears filled. eyes closed. submersion in water. the feeling of pure static. skin stretched. ribs. lips. hair. teeth. white. innocence. purity. assumptions and disgust. terror. screaming not above whispering, all distorted. confusing. where is the light? an absence of color. strict meals. rice. ice. stand straighter, straighter. be smaller. quiet. misplaced kisses upon locks of silver. twinkling tears. she guesses it's okay. books and brooms. robes and smoke. lessons learned, mistakes repeated. don't bite the hand that feeds you. keep moving. silence. episodes of encouraging whispers. attention focused on the baby. a baby too young. naive. quiet. silence is deafening.
[break][break]
bird cages. mood swings. a child asks,"where's daddy?" met with silence and whispers behind closed doors. father is flooded in work. a witch with ends to meet. mother knows best. protection. love. care. gentle touches, the brushing of hair. continuous whispers and lies spiraling around and around -- cacophony.
[break][break]
"don't speak, do as mother says. you'll be perfect. trust mother."
[break]
biased words. pain stemming from obsidian and violet hues dancing around navy pools of dandelions -- marring porcelain. darkness twisting, turning. spirals into the void. swirling and building up into absolutely nothing. nihilism. a concept. stark differences between black and white. grey is an area familiar. grey. grey. soft and pure. innocence. breaking down and down. tasting fear with an aftertaste of bitter crimson. time dwindling. stand straighter. no noise. quiet down. don't smile. tears. warm. thick. cheeks pale, body cold. trembling fingers and muffled static. shaking, shaking. lack of air and static brings numbness which brings blurred faces and echoes. echo, echo. twisting around for quiet. comfort brought forth by the eldest, middle feels guilt. father's back? father is surprised. shouting. scary faces and unfamiliar hands pulling her up from the deep oasis of cold. coughing. obsidian, violet. dandelions in navy. dancing, painting. a hue of marred porcelain. ivory stains the moon with the smell of sanguine.
[break][break]
"don't worry. you're safe now. god, i'm sorry i couldn't--"
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choked sobs. confusion. gentle fingers, trembling. static upon static. new areas, new atmosphere. places with blurred faces. lack of sound. heavy chests and warm embraces. aroma lurking -- iron and rosewood. nights alone. fear clings to the absence of structure and routine. stand straighter? no more. no more. distant words and spoken thoughts. it's warm. months warped to years. it's easier. easier. quiet lingers. the taste of burnt cinnamon. perfect, an illusion. eldest kept her all this time -- progress made. skin wrapped upon meat wrapped upon bones. heavier, taller, weak but stronger. magic. familiars. quivering lips, tears. panic. hysteria. calm voices. nonexistent whispers. no longer following routine. learning. porcelain restored. silence, hands moving in a flurry.
[break][break]
it's time for the bird to leave the nest. years upon years. memories blurred. faces blurred. distance memories. muddled water, static. aimless movement. the smell of stardust and pine. loving thoughts. eldest on the mind. eldest, middle redeemed. father's warmth. cheek kisses. bird cages. open opportunities. white and the taste of honeydew.
[break][break]
"please be safe. you know where to find me, i love you..."
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unsure steps. the comfort of home lost within the wind, replaced with the bitter taste of licorice. confusion pieced together with trembling skin, goosebumps upon eyes unseeing yet seeing all the same. a few days turn to weeks, alone. scared. learning, knowing. experience forced. stand straighter, look smaller. dance. watch, observe. lost. taste of salt. itchy nose lingering on new sights. careful steps. brighter future. lights screaming beauty. enchanted.
[break][break]
covens. witches. broomsticks. the taste of stardust and blurred past, present and future. lingering on a feeling, one moment of pure bliss. spilled apples. larger hands, fumbling motions of apologies. silence. smiles met with fear and trembling fingers. a smile brings comfort. courage. shared questions. ink. paper. gestures and timid gazes. cain. a name. patience and inspiration. concerns spilled. laughter. static. static. another smile. the taste of luck and the sound of opportunity. understanding without judgement. she remembers seeing relief. hope upon the horizon.
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"i know the look in your eyes and it seems to me, you belong to jester's den."
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